This was exactly what I thought, I’ve had enough of them to know and it hurt to see the lengths it went with Sherlock (and John, please, how could you have missed it?).
Another take on the scene: or, why John Watson is a…
Thank you for this, definitely helped me understand a little more of what I seemed to be feeling watching this!
John is stalwart, the embodiment of it really, this we know. Though that by no means indicates perfection. On one hand it’s easy enough to say ‘well considering the magnitude of the situation, how could he possibly leave him!’ But I kept thinking ‘considering the magnitude of the situation, maybe he realised he wasn’t quite ready to handle it himself.’ I mean, even if he’d WANTED to stay, the best he could have done was just sit there, being supportive, but I don’t even know if his continued presence would have been garnered as such. Sherlock was obviously not sitting well with these revelations, it’s hard to say just how much farther he might have escalated. It seems harsh, but perhaps leaving under those circumstances was for the best, if not the lesser of two evils.
I can only reflect this upon myself, and how (like shiverelectric went on to say) I know I need my time to tizz and I will only lash until I’ve had it, leading to guilt - which Sherlock went on to feel to some degree, from what little he’d done! It wasn’t going to fix itself; as romantic as I can be, a lot of these situations can’t be fixed directly, you just need time.
So yeah, definitely uncomfortable to watch, perhaps less than ideal, but to me it was very real. John as a doctor, as a soldier would recognise these things in an instant, but as a friend, as Sherlock’s friend, he may have hit a point himself. I can’t resent him too much for that. A lot of people (weasel words, sorry) didn’t like to see Sherlock left alone, but I’d say it’s pretty crucial to him finding center again - I know a lot of us might have preferred for that center to be John, but alas. There’s grace in knowing when to back off, too.